God gave me many lessons to learn today. It was very amazing, all these events are actually referring to the same problem I had - My pride. I wasn't quite aware about that until Geok Lan enlightened me with that. It all started at around 11 plus this morning. Where rajagopal assigned me to look for people to help him carry chairs and tables up and down from one block to another. Knowing everyone is busy, he approached me to find people from my department to carry down. As my department got 2 specialist and 2 man(that includes me), none of them is available to help. Therefore I was very upset and angry with them, probably because everyone knows helping rajagopal is an useless thing and many refuse to help him.
The next matter was what happened during the youth camp meeting later in the evening. I had everything well-planned for the camp programs where I was assigned, but at the mtg, the two proposals I spent time doing were both rejected. This was the second draft of what I've done. I was pretty upset with it, as I felt my effort wasn't appreciated at all. Thank God that Yea Ling, Elphia and Geok Lan are understanding person and corrected my wrong perception.
At the trip home with Geok Lan, she shared with me the struggles she faced when she was organising other camps before. She says I need to let go of my pride, as serving is "What God wants me to do?" not "What I want to do?". I know this camp wouldn't be a camp that I will do it smoothly, as there will be many lessons God wants me to learning severely. I must have the faith to complete it even though I have never come across this situation before, as this committee is another group of ppl God assigned to. I really need to rely on God's strength to overcome thios 'culture shock'.
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